Waiting

Waiting is hard for me to do.

I’ve written about this before.
If not, I’ve thought about this before.
A lot.

I try to talk myself out of thinking about what I’m waiting for,
but I can’t.

I try to be reasonable.
I say things like, “Let go. Let the universe take care of things.”
But, I can’t.

I take lots of deep breaths.
In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out.
But, I can’t.

I try not to check my email every 5 minutes,
but I can’t.

I try to do something else.
Anything else.
I read a book.
I watch a movie.

Then, I check my email.

Nothing.

And, the cycle starts all over again.

If I could truly let go of what I want,
then maybe it would come to me
when I’m ready to receive it.

Easier said than done.

Waiting is hard for me to do.