These are some of the words and phrases that have become a part of my vocabulary over the last few months:
Lymphoma
Non-Hodgkin Lymphoma
Cancer
Tom Baker Cancer Centre
Full hip replacement
Physiotherapy
Neutrophils
Neutropenic
Hospital
Doctors
Hematologist
Nurses
Chemo
Stem cell transplant
Fevers
Dizzy
Tired
Blood transfusions
Blood counts
Methotrexate
RCHOP
Hair loss
C-T Scan
PET Scan
X-rays
MRIs
Injections
IVs
And, here are some of the, mostly unexplained and unexplainable, mood swings I am experiencing:
Bouts of crying without a reason. Like a couple of nights ago. My 14-year-old son heard me crying and tried to get me to calm down by deep breathing with him. When he asked me what was wrong, I couldn’t give him a satisfactory answer. Not last night and not the next morning.
Bouts of crying without a reason. Usually after I get back from a treatment at the hospital.
Bouts of crying without a reason. Feelings of frustration because I want to do stuff around the house, but can only do a little bit at a time.
Bouts of crying without a reason. Like now, though writing about it helps because this is my story.
Cross pasted to the Two Writing Teachers Slice of Life Tuesday Challenge.
You have every reason to cry. Cry when you feel like it. Cry as much as you want. The words you listed easily bring tears. I wish/hope that you also have words like hope, brave, support and love in a list and that these words give you strength.
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Thank you, Terje. Yes, I need those words, too. That would be another blog post where I can examine why it’s so hard for me to see the positive side of things. Thanks for the reminder.
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Thank you for sharing. I am thankful for writing so many days and ways but I am holding space for that thankfulness for you today.
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Thank you, Tammy. That means a lot.
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