I have written about this before.
Teaching online: the hard days.
Well, today was a hard day.
I literally sat for 7 hours.
I skipped lunch.
No water.
No bathroom break.
Nothing.
No one to blame, but myself.
Still trying to do everything humanly possible and more to engage my students even as I recognize that I’m working harder than most of them. Even as I try to do everything I can think of to turn over the responsibility of learning and doing to them.
I am running out of energy. I don’t know how I’ve made it this far.
There were so many moments today when I felt like I was talking to myself.
No sounds.
Nothing in the chat.
No hands raised.
No thumbs up in the air.
Nothing.
Zilch.
Zero.
Crickets.
Just me talking away.
Questioning myself.
My teaching.
My assignments.
My instructions.
Questioning everything.
Who was I to think I could handle online teaching?
And, yet, tomorrow I’ll show up again with a smile on my face.
Teacher life, take #2.
Cross posted to The Two Writing Teachers Slice of Life Tuesday Story Challenge.
Elisa Waingort 
There’s so much here. You have made it this far and you are definitely going to do this:
“And, yet, tomorrow I’ll show up again with a smile on my face.”
Teachers have been phenomenal this school year! There’s light at the end of the tunnel… swim on!
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Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. As Jen Laffin likes to remind us: We can do hard things”. But sometimes it feels excruciatingly hard that it hursts. Hugs to you!
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Hugs, Elisa. I understand. You’ve got this. Take a deep breath and keep going. Next year will be better!
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Thank you, Tracy! I’m definitely counting on next year being better. Stay well!
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You are amazing, Elisa! Your strength and resilience are inspiring! Celebrate how far you have made it. You’ve got this.
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Thank you for your kind comments. Deep breaths, right? Stay well.
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The way you keep pushing through in this challenging environment is inspiring! You’re modeling perseverance for your students and how to show up every day while giving something your all. I’d love to be in your online classroom!
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