I have written about this before.
Teaching online: the hard days.
Well, today was a hard day.
I literally sat for 7 hours.
I skipped lunch.
No water.
No bathroom break.
Nothing.
No one to blame, but myself.
Still trying to do everything humanly possible and more to engage my students even as I recognize that I’m working harder than most of them. Even as I try to do everything I can think of to turn over the responsibility of learning and doing to them.
I am running out of energy. I don’t know how I’ve made it this far.
There were so many moments today when I felt like I was talking to myself.
No sounds.
Nothing in the chat.
No hands raised.
No thumbs up in the air.
Nothing.
Zilch.
Zero.
Crickets.
Just me talking away.
Questioning myself.
My teaching.
My assignments.
My instructions.
Questioning everything.
Who was I to think I could handle online teaching?
And, yet, tomorrow I’ll show up again with a smile on my face.
Teacher life, take #2.
Cross posted to The Two Writing Teachers Slice of Life Tuesday Story Challenge.
Elisa Waingort 
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